Jealousy

I'm not sure why I respond this way
It's something I really can't explain
I suppose I could try to put it to words
But most people would just think I'm vain

It may be my insecurities
Or maybe it's my mind
Those things may go hand in hand
But it's a feeling of a different kind

It's something that plagues me
That cripples me to the core
It leaves me feeling like I'm better off alone
And my entire body sore

When this emotion appears
Mental distance I seek
I'm not sure why I run from it
I guess it's because I'm weak

I know you're thinking it seems petty
I think that too
I shouldn't be so insecure
I just have trouble thinking it through

See the problem lies deep within
And maybe I can blame my past
Although there is no excuse
So these feeling I hide behind my mask

My jealousy doesn't come from disbelief
Your loyalty is no question
That is why it's hard to explain
But please don't get the wrong impression

I guess in the end it's just who I am
This broken mess of a man
It's something I'm trying to better
And for your sake i hope I can..