The metaphors and imagery here were quite beautiful - I felt the sense of desperation in both the battle imagery where efforts were not good enough, and the sun and storm imagery where there is no control on what happens next. It was very poignant and full of feelings. Your free form format really worked well for you. I liked also how you switched partway through from 'I' to 'we', like this is a problem that is taking over, but wait, it is not only taking over me. Thank you for choosing to share this poem.