I can’t believe it,
I don’t understand,
How could this happen to me?
I knew better,
I took all the precautions,
I was so positive,
This wasn’t suppose to happen again,
But look, look what I did
I went and screwed up once more.
I knew the risk,
I knew the chances,
I knew the patterns,
But yet I took the gamble.
Everyone thought I was fine,
No one seemed to catch it.
Everyone thought it was ok,
Nothing more than a simple heartbreak.
What they all missed,
What they failed to see,
Was the demons that I was battling
Actually had control of me.
It started out so innocent,
Just one for the pain,
The doctor even thought that I was okay.
The next thing I knew,
I kept going back for more.
The headaches then began,
No one knew why,
I couldn’t tell them,
No, not a sole,
This is my secret,
And I thought I had control.
What I soon realized,
What I had to face,
Was the demon that I was fighting,
Was about to stake its claim.
My life is on the line,
There aint no doubt in my mind,
The drugs are now gone,
But yet these cravings are so strong.
I wonder if I can win,
I wonder if the battle will ever end.
Will I be strong enough to survive,
Or shall I give in without a fight?
All of this took place
In just a few short months,
And it all began with only one.
One pill, just to kill the pain,
One pill now just to make it thru the day.
