I Hold On

How much more time do we have,
Will it be a million years?
I have felt your gravitational pull,
Bringing me in between laughter and tears.

More than a decade now,
I cannot believe so much time has past,
My emotions have been a rollercoaster,
My fear, quite vast.

How can you still build a wall between us,
When I dedicated so much to you,
Do you want my blood? My soul?
What else can I do?

I hold on, for the sake of the children,
But in truth there is so much more;
I want you to show me I matter,
And to show me there is a reason my devotion endures.