She's Gone

They say women can't be friends
that there is no room for love between them

They say only rivalry and drama thrive
When two women collide

They say it's only a matter of time
before one hurts the other, an infraction, felt like some sort of crime

But when I met her, my world stopped
My pulse raced and yet
my heart dropped

Maybe it was friendship at first meeting
Maybe we were two women who desperately wanted each other's company
Maybe it was because I told the universe how lonesome I was

But I remember her first smile
Her first words to me and our first conversation

Her eyes glistened as she spoke, her laugh was infectious and her hair was freely full of life

Why do we find certain people, how do we come across or do they find us
Maybe I loved her because she broke down my walls to friendship
Maybe I loved her because she was the first woman to pass her hands through my hair
In the most natural way, a woman's way

Us women share a commonality, we share a certain pain and functionality
That joins us

She made me unafraid to love a woman, to invest my time and trust
To divest myself of the misconceptions of the bonds of sisterly affection

But soon after we met, not many moons had passed
She left for greener pastures and left me in her past
She put oceans in between us 'to make a life' she said
"Toughen up" "I'll always be there, you know that I'm not dead"
So why does this feel like an uncertain death
A pounding, palpitation, tachycardia in my chest
A lump in my throat and wishes for the best
And yet.. all that's left is unrest

I hope she remembers me
When she comes back, I certainly won't forget her
I hope she doesn't think I'm not cheering her on because I certainly I won't let her

She'll be a million miles away, a plane ticket and half a day
Oh my dear friend, please know that I want nothing if not the best for my bae