And ever since I was a small child
I remember the pain I used to feel
The states of severe depression
And how nothing could ever feel real
How I couldn't pull myself out of it
How I would just sit in the corner and cry
Hold myself until I could function again
And I never knew why
Even with all the programs I went through
I could never pinpoint the reasons I felt the way I did
Some said adoption or resentment
Others said it would pass and the truth, it never did
So I function as much as I can
And I go and take things day by day
But the sadness sometimes over takes me
And I feel again I am being led astray
Depression is the worse kind of things
And they'll remind you someone has it worse
And I will remind you the hell I have been through
You cannot compare your life, it's a curse
And I will tell you how happy I can be at times
But a lot of those times it appears fake
And those who truly know me never did
It's a said but truthful state
I am alone in the world, and that's not change
No one will ever understand this feeling I keep
And when you take a glimpse into my past
You'll be scared away, time and time over, on repeat
And there's nothing strong about me,
Although I am great on leading people to think that way
You see it's all a front I have learned to put on over the years
And maybe people see it, that's why they never stay
