Maybe I am stupid
Stupid to stay when I know I am pained
Maybe I am crazy
Because I let my heart be strained.
I didn't love you just to love you
I didn't love you just because
I didn't ask for these feelings to grow
And I don't believe they plan to pause
I never asked you to love me back
But I do expect you to understand
You must understand I am pained
And you must consider who I am
You know I give my all,
Give my all to those who don't deserve
And I may have only gave you part of me
Because I am still reserved
I never completely trusted you
And it was with good reason I suppose
As much as I wanted to trust and believe
I refused to let myself get out of control.
As much as I am pained to see
How much I need you out of my world
And as much as I also need you here
I am better on my own, at least I've been told
And the more time I spend with you
The more time I have to fall deeper
And the more pain I will feel when you leave
The bridge I am building, to become steeper
So that when I fall, which I know I will
It will only hurt that much more,
And when I fall which I am sure to
You will not catch me as I fall, not for sure
And I want you in my life more than anything,
I yearn for you to never leave, to stay
But how dumb can I be to let you be here
When my heart has already been led astray
But I am stupid I suppose
Because I am weak when it comes to you,
And the truth is I don't want you to leave
I want you to stay, I want you to come through
And maybe I am crazy
After listening to all you have said
Or maybe I am just hopeful
That I can heal you, and put your bad thoughts and past to bed.
