Break Down

My heart beats a rhythm,
It's just to get me by,
And all my thoughts are sinners,
And the life I'm living, a lie.

There's a peacefulness in darkness,
A painless way through hate,
Broken reflections shatter consciously,
But still they are my fate.

I feel comfort knowing no one sees,
That I'm not coping as I should,
I feel warmth when my tears fall,
Knowing I did everything I could.

But still the lines grow blurry,
And still the pain holds dear,
I'm still waiting for the scabs to form,
To compliment my fears.

The only way I can survive,
Is helping those in need,
But when will it be my turn?
That my sorrows will be heed.

I cannot drag these demons,
I cannot keep them tracked,
And all along my heart is bleeding,
And my soul all torn and cracked.