What Isn't Now

Were still great friends,
Almost sibling like,
But he doesn't see,
That my whole personality is just a phsyc.

I'll stay strong,
God forbid I EVER hurt him.
He's my best friend,
Yet he's caused my sanity to be so slim.

Although he thinks of me as a sister,
He was my first love.
This is very important,
That he doesn't know is tough.

But he's to smart,
He'll eventually figure it out.
He'll realize that I cut for the first time.
He'll realize hiding is what I'm all about.

He'll realize he's hurt me,
He'll be worried and scared.
Don't get me wrong,
He's always cared.

He'll ask me how,
And he'll ask me why.
And I'll tell him,
When you told me the truth... it made me want to die.