I'm still hurt
Out on nowhere
Here and there
I just feel like crying
I didn't understand why
Now I do
After everything that happened
I still love you
It hurts not hearing from you
Every time I hear from you
My heart gets happy
You texting me gives a little hope
Maybe we can get through this
Then over and over again
You come and go
Leaving me confused
So I act on my pain
Every time you come back
You don't love me
What do you want?
We have nothing to say
Unless it's about Jaxson
You act like you're not hurting me
Like you didn't do anything wrong
When in all reality
Your taking my love as weakness
Giving me hope
Taking it back every time you go
Disappearing because you're a coward
You can't handle the outcome you caused
Making up so many excuses
When the truth was my actions
Everything I have done for you
You still don't realize
My heart cries for you
Out of nowhere
Here and there
I just feel like crying
I didn't understand why
Now I do
I became a pushover
I gave you control
Control of my emotions
Control of my flesh
I gave you control of myself
Reacting to the way you treat me
Only because I just wanted you in my life
Good or bad i didnt care
You were still in my life
Everything happens for a reason
I'm trying to figure out that reason
It hurts that your not in my life
At least I can see clearly
That my reason to crying is pain
Not the fact of you coming and going
It's because I loved you
I sacrifice my wants and needs
Believed there was an us
In that process of loving you
I withered away
I sacrificed myself
To please you
I got attached
So here and there
Out of nowhere
I just feel like crying
Because I can't let go
Let go of the person I sacrifice myself to
I'm crying because I lost myself from loving you
