A night under the stars

As I walk through the cool night and into the damp grass
That leads to the meadow,
A million thoughts are running through my head.
Thoughts of how you've been and how you are now
And I make my way to our meeting place.
I see your silhouette walking towards me and a huge smile comes on my face.
You are so beautiful.
We share a kiss and my hand automatically fits in yours and we start to walk. Are you real?
Is this real?
Your cologne fills my nose, a scent that has always been familiar to me.
Your warmth radiates mine,
keeping the both of us warm in the cool night air as we walk to a stop under the stars and lay down the blanket.
You sit down behind me, but your turned so our faces are right beside each other.
You smile and we get lost in a flurry of kisses
The pain that has been enveloping me over the last few months dulls to a throb and fades.
You are here.
You came.
And you are right beside me.
My hands caress both of your cheeks,
I still can't believe you are real.
We look up at the stars, it's a beautiful night
But it's chilly
You lay down beside me an I cuddle next to you
My head on your chest,
And I can feel your racing heartbeat.
Crickets chirp and the night sky is clear,
Dazzling stars are everywhere,
Shining bright and beautiful like you.
Our love has had many tests
But we withered them all and here we are,
Under the night sky sharing the love that we
Have given each other.
It's been a year since we met,
And I have things planned for tonight
For our anniversary.
You kiss my forehead an it's the sweetest thing
Anyone has ever done for me.
You tell me how special I am, how beautiful I am
And how much you missed me.
My heart speeds up with every kiss that we share
And suddenly the world doesn't matter anymore
We do.
I put my head back on your chest and we lay
Like this for a while.
We don't need to have sex.
We don't need to screw each other like animals.
We can just lay here under the stars and just...
Just BE.
Just exist.
We want to live in this moment forever
But we both know we can't.
I kiss your neck and pull you in tighter, wrapping my legs
Around yours.
We are tangled In each other,
And we fit perfectly.
We were made for each other.
I look up at the stars and promise myself
That no matter what I will never leave you
And if I have to leave,
I will always find you again.
Always.
When it's time to go I hug and kiss you
Ad you whisper I love you and,
Like it does every time
My heart speeds up at those words coming out
Of your mouth
I whisper I love you back and our hands
Slip away from each other as I walk slowly away.
Tears sting my eyes but we did this
Knowing it would hurt like hell to leave.
I promised I wouldn't cry but as I walk away a
Salty tear slips down my cheek and I quickly
Brush it away
I look back at you and I can see you standing where I left you
And it breaks my heart all over again.
I take a few more steps
Looking back every five seconds until
I can't see your silhouette anymore
I get back to where my room is
And I put my nose up to my hoodie.
It smells like your cologne.
And even though another fresh set of tears
Spring to my eyes I smile.
Because your high is worth the pain
And because tonight
As I laid with you under the starry night sky
I knew that one day soon
We wouldn't have to say goodbye.
Only goodnight.