I\\\'m not everything I\\\'m made out to be
there\\\'s a lot more then what you see,
been brought up trough a lot of sh*t
my life is a mess but I\\\'m pulling through it,
you wouldn\\\'t believe what Ive seen
the pain i felt, i needed to scream,
the sh*t messed around with my head
everyday i woke up wishing i was dead,
someone stab me with a knife
or pull a trigger, just take my life,
I\\\'m sorry i turned bad
but everything has made me emotionally sad,
i didn\\\'t mean to get drunk that time
but when i was drunk there was nothing on my mind,
I\\\'m sorry you had to see me in that way
i didn\\\'t wanna be here what more can i say,
i thought if i took an overdose my life would end
but I\\\'m still here and my life\\\'s on end,
i still feel this pain inside
and wake up every morning still wanted to die,
but I\\\'m really trying
i wanna wake up not thinking bout dying,
i wanna grow up and get away from all it
u will all be here still living through sh*t,
wish you could see behind my eyes and see the tears falling down,
i wish you could see behind my smile and see my frown,
along this road of troubles its love I\\\'ve found,
and my life is on track cos he understands
