I finally realized how much of what you said meant to me, you were the one that i loved most. And yet you denied me the ONE thing that kept me remotely happy. You denied me our friendship. Although you offered it back it will never be the same. I cut my wrist today . The first time in months. B/c i finally knew that i could lose the one i would die for in a blink of an eye. So now i thought I'd tell you of my actions. My tears fall for the heartache I'm in. They fall b/c of my reality. They fall b/c for the first time in 3 years I lost another great friendship. My ears flow b/c i know it will never be the same. My heart breaks b/c i miss you so much. I bleed b/c of the anger at myself and at the razor as it slices open my skin. But most of all I love and forgive, b/c You taught me how to. And this is why i cry, B/c i love you so much and forgive to every extent but I'm always afraid to lose you..
As my tears fall soundlessly along their well-beaten roads down my cheeks and slowly to the ground..
