Almost Am

I'm not that pretty girl
That talks that much
I'm not that girly girl
With the soft touch

I don't smile enough
And when I do, its torn
My life is complicated
It was when I was born

I distance myself
From people I know
I'm scared of hurting
So instead I let go

But I won't complain to you
I'll just shrug my shoulder
You won't know it hurts
As I'm getting older

I'll tell you my goals
But I won't mention my past
Even if you beg me
So don't even ask

I have very little friends
But I know a lot more
I speak when spoken to
And only I can open that door

I'm doing my best
And only what I can
I'm not the girl you need
But I know I almost am.