Rememberence

Tears flow like a waterfall,
Blending in with the shower,
Everyone thinks I'm tough as nails,
But I'm breaking, I'm a delicate flower
Fragile as I have ever been,
Voices screaming at me through the silence,
You have no idea how much I miss my blade,
By I promised you, no self violence
Memories flit across my vision,
Nightmares come back to me at night,
Waking up I'm drained and breaking,
How much long will I be able to fight?
"I'll keep my promises, I don't wantvyou to go"
Hatred wraps around my heart,
We had gotten so far in the few weeks we had,
Now we are right back to the start.
You say you can't do this and you say that you're breaking,
But so am I and I don't know what to do,
I want to be the one to be there,
But if I can't even support myself, how can I support you?
We need each other more than ever,
Or maybe you're fine and it's just me who needs you,
But I'm on the verge of breaking myself,
And there's nothing I can do.
I love you and you need to know,
How beautiful you are to me,
Loving you was never about the intimate stuff,
With you at was easy to just.... Be.
I sit in my bed curled up in a ball,
Tears running down my face,
How did we end up this way?
Why is my life such a big disgrace?
One simple promise passes through my mind,
It's the only one I want to break,
My blade forever my best friend,
But losing you is at too high a risk to take