Another beautiful write, Saffie, full of emotion and sensitivity. I hate the picture of you curled up and crying all alone! You have written so many poems about this person recently; mostly sad, mostly full of worry about them giving up on you and leaving, with never an outcome to help you move forward! Maybe it's time you 'took the bull by the horns' so to speak and actually told them what you feel and what your wishes are? If they are sensitive to your emotions and wishes, you should have nothing to worry about, and if they are not, then let them go because they are not worth the knowing, and find another! I do understand why you are reluctant, which links to your past and not wishing to have your 'heart damaged further', but that position just leaves you with unresolved and unrelenting hurt and turmoil anyway. Please don't take this as being arrogant, because it is not meant to be, but my own moral code demands honesty and integrity towards others at all times and this sometimes results in 'venturing where others fear to tread' to know where I stand. Living with 'worry and uncertainty' versus 'knowing where you stand'? I choose the latter every time! A lovely write, Saffie!