I braid my fingers
let my troubles fade away
they look like a puzzle
where the pieces don't fit
I have hope in my heart
but just as much fear
I'm afraid that I'll balance
away, from my own trust
and get lost in my mind
that sometimes miss
weed and blunts
just a time to relax
and forget every plague
then I think back to a time
where taking drugs
and build mistrust
was a daily shadow
that touched my faith
I shouldn't yearn
for a time
where I got lost
but carefree thoughts
got lost as well
the positive me
is filled with tears
even when I'm happy
stress turns me down
and I'm right back
missing the drugs
that make me forget
the worries of my mind
and the fears of my heart
addiction chained me
to the bottom of the sea
now I'm trying to swim
with tears in my eyes
