I wish I could answer all of your questions,
one at a time, to help you understand me,
but the more I think about it,
the less I am able to share with you.
When you get too close,
sometimes I can barely look at you,
can hardly speak to you,
because I'm too afraid to see the disgust
and disappointment in your eyes.
Because when there is only us,
and no dirty secrets from my past,
I can see that love's alive in your eyes,
and that's how I always want it to be.
