This reads like a slam poem to me, The tension and pain builds the more you read.
To begin with I found the constant use of the 'I' off putting, however as I continued to read I found it helped with the pacing.
It starts off fairly slow but moves to a more manic pace as the anger surfaces.
Just as you think that anger has led to despair we see that it has actually led to enlightenment.
I have re-read and I have to say that I am impressed with the portraying of emotion and raw power of this piece.
The layout and repetition is nothing like I would have written, that is a good thing.
You have opened my eyes to something different.
There are some great nuggets of poetry embedded in this,
such as
I have fallen into nonchalance and carelessness, profanity and despair.
and
I fight to be seen disguised in my lies trying to survive but you do not live unless truth abides.
love the rhythm of this line ^
my favourite
My fear is heavy cement that keeps me in one spot on the sidewalk of life;
there is one nit though
Let me out of her!!!
I think her should be here
(Unless you meant something different entirely ; - )
Thanks for giving me something different to read, for that you have my nomination