I sometimes convince myself
that nothing he ever said was true,
but a voice inside of me creates doubt,
and I fear I am only then lying to myself.
I'm terrified that the touch of your hand
on the edge of this star,
will stab you through the heart,
as he takes you away to punish me
for being so close to you.
I get so confused between believing you,
and believing him,
it grinds my heart to pieces
to think that I could ever hurt you,
and that's why sometimes,
every touch I still resist.
