Empty Stomach Empty Soul

I wish I had taken time to think
before I made that decision
to go knocking at his door,
but I wanted him to hear the unexpected news,
thinking it would be the last time
I'd ever have to say,
"I walked into the door again"
but I thought wrong.

He suddenly pulls me by the hair,
and throws me on the ground,
kicking me hard in the stomach
and screaming at me not to lie.

I didn't want to keep it
a big secret any more,
because the truth would have surfaced
in nine months time,
and it would have been way too late to explain.

And just like that,
my life changed in an instant,
when I saw the blood trickling
down beneath my legs,
as I collapse outside his bathroom door;
I knew my baby's life was over.

I wanted so much
to knock on your door,
to save my baby's soul from any danger,
and not only did I leave
with an empty stomach
and a missing heartbeat...

... I left,
losing my entire soul.

Saffie
24

3/11/15