Thank you. I appreciate your thoughts and your emotions when reading this, and taking the time to write this comment. We weren't siblings by blood, but our bond was closer than any blood in the world could bind. No matter what I write, I always feel like I cannot fully express this endless pitch-black grief that is eating me up on the inside, even though it's been five months since he died.

I hope it gets less difficult to endure this pain some time. But I will forever be reminded of his birthday as his birthday, the 6th of December, is the same as my own mother's. So that date will always bring me conflicted feelings, as I grieve the death of the person who has meant more than anything to me in the entire world for so long, yet celebrate the mother that gave me this life to begin with.

And honestly, I'm not sure what I could do to manage to cope with any of this. I just feel so... Alone.