I began this life at 14
Carrying it on into my mid twenties
Thinking nothing was wrong
But someone was about to come along
Steadily these rules where being places
Ed eventually revealed his face
Introducing me to a new fond faith
He explain how I could escape
It started involving a secret side
Guaranteeing to never making me have to deal
Ed and I became a great duo
He was my mighty hero
Quickly things changed as I aged
I know longer had a say
With Ed in a more demanding way
I still needed him to stay sane
Afterward my world was just wild
Just wanting to keep up with survival
Unnaturally devastating what I came to be
But Ed continued to promise to help me
I began feeling hopeless
Ed was so joyous
Beginning recovery was worthless
Here I learn Ed was me beyond distorted
Asking for help wasn't easy
I just comminuted treason
Ed no longer listened to reason
I took the first step to freedom
Rebecoming able to speak for myself
Was something I didn't think I was capable of
I couldn't have all that was required
So scared I wouldn't make it out of there
My walls are completely built strong
I struggled lowering them at all
Others showed me it wasn't my fault
Just needed to see I'm safe when vulnerable
It was a long spiral battle
My feelings were overwhelming
I took it as a day by day thing
Then it hit me I'm gonna beat this thing
Once the battle strength came
It was all a new game
I began affirming daily
I made theses my safety
With the help of my team
I slowly but surely started dealing with things
Which wasn't as easy as I thought it would be
They stood right beside with me
I formally believe my life is closer to Ed free
Right now I'm in the process of grieving
Which gives me many mixes feelings
But I already know this is the real me living.
