Voices And Choices

Two small voices battle inside of me
as this addiction now controls me.

One voice playing with my feelings,
reassurance that the first cut
will instantly stop this pain
and I will find release.

I try so hard not to listen
as another voice reminds me
of having to wear long sleeves
to cover up the wounds,
and also that once is never enough.

Two small choices waiting in my cold hands,
controlled by two small voices in my head.

It's nights like these
that I am terrified
of being
alone.

Saffie
24

12/12/15