It is always her words
that jump into my head
when the feeling of temptation lingers.
"Without my scars,
I'd be a little more attractive
and boys would find me pretty."
Ironically, her words reassured me,
and they will never be forgotten,
not by me.
My addiction of release
suddenly became a sting operation
to make myself ugly with shining scars.
Because when you feel
scared to death
that love and attraction
means unimaginable torture and pain,
you will do anything you can
to stop the love from starting.
