You suffocated me
You choked me
Gave me life
Then you disowned me
Intoxicated me
Then drugged me
With your words
Visions, alleged plans
Dreams and schemes, lies
Those false hopes
Keeping me awake at night
Wondering
If one day your lies would ever become your truths
If you would ever see
What you and I could be
Me and you
I and us
A divine story of overcoming love
But it wasn't enough
I wasn't enough
Instead you chose
to tie a rope
Somewhere between hope and uncertainty
Wondering if you and me
Are meant to be
Letting family
Control your mind
Never said it but your actions did
They said all the things you never said
Holding my heart hostage on a string called possibilities
Up and down, merry go round
You suffocated me
If I can't have you know one else will
So I'll keep you around just so you can keep still
have me in your corner while subconsciously looking for my replacement
you see I know the game
I wrote the book
No answer is also an answer
all those Uncertainties
Worries &
Tears
all that love , that was wasted
No decision was your decision
No progression was your discretion
In a constant state of going nowhere
And if you are stagnant and I am moving forward
Then where does that leave us
Two different individuals bounded by a "love" that once was
So I left
Life to short to live in uncertainties
No longer could I hold on to what could be
So I had to set.me. free
And although it hurts more than what could ever be described by words
I had to do whats best for me
One day you'll see
One day you'll realize what you left behind
One day you'll realize all the times I let your desires and needs come before mine
One day you'll realize all the nights I cried, but told you that I was just fine
One day you'll realize you made the biggest mistake of your life
One day you'll realize a girl that would look past all your shortcomings and still love you the way I loved you you'll never find
One day you'll wake up and realize
I was the one that got away....
And by then it'll be way too late
Because I wasn't even worth a fray
And the memories will keep you up at night
But guess what you chose that life
And that's alright
And please don't worry about me
Cause I'll be fine
A woman like me will always shine.
