I wish i could turn back
to change the day i thought
i can have one geniune friend
to whom i'd reveal my true self
and take em to the deepest n darkest
corners of my god forsaken cold heart
tell em my biggest n scary thoughts
and show em my most painful wound
but damn i was the greatest of fool
for i trusted the wrong individual
who was just a bad guy
pretending to be good.
but heavens didnt let me realize it
untill i was deep into the shit
n when it revealed itself
i felt big bang reoccur
n now m lying here thinking
was it too much to ask?
was i that big of a fool u say i am?
was i too bad to deserve a friend?
or m i stupid enough to get myself hurt?
n then my mind blames me
that i never was good enough
n i suck all the happiness n make
my own world ominously dark
n i sustain a never ending singularity
n now i feel like a freakin blackhole....
