Unprepared

She reaches out for yesterday,
wondering why she ever let you slip away.
Was every single ounce of love
only ever built on a lie?

I was just a girl still growing up,
I became hidden
in the silence of dark secrets,
until your love showed me a turning point.

But now,
I lie in bed in tears at night,
lost without you -
nothing in the world
could have prepared me for this;
the person you became.

Without you now, I carry on,
tangled in the confusion
of who you really were,
and who you really are.

Saffie
24

20/12/15