Wishful Thinking

I wanted to be with you,
But I kept my heart at bay.
I wanted you to love me.
Those three words I wish you'd say.
Now you belong to someone else.
An angel who lost her wings.
Oh how I regret it now.
How different things would be.
I hate seeing you two together.
Every time my fragile heart breaks.
You don't know what I feel inside.
That chance I wish I could take.
What is it about her
That you find so appealing?
It must be something that I don't have.
What exactly am I missing?
I wish that you could hold me
And take all this pain away.
There's no way I can feel your touch.
I need it tomorrow,
But not as much as yesterday.
Why would God send me an angel
Only to give him to someone else?
How could he fill my heart with hope
Only to pick it up broken and
Put it back on the shelf?
I hate this feeling of emptiness.
The loneliness is even worse.
My heart used to be my blessing,
But now it has become my curse.