I hate myself...

by WanderingShade   Apr 22, 2016


I got to thinking of you again,
My mind wandered down passed,
That huge do not enter sign....

I found myself wanting to see your face,
And there I was looking a a picture of you,
Kissing some random person...

The Pure Rage that tore through me,
That scares me,
Why do I still get jealous?

I thought I tore you out of my heart,
Thought I ripped you from my soul,
And yet here you are reeking havoc on my mind...

You are still there,
Like a cancer,
Dictating my moves...

You are this virus,
This disease I can't cure,
Corrupting my core...

I hate that I can't get rid of you,
I hate myself for the truth I want to deny,
I hate you...

Because at the end of it all,
When I have come to the answer,
I still love you...

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  • 8 years ago

    by Em

    Ah why can't we just turn off our feelings when things end and break us? If only it was so simple.. Love turns to hate because of what they did but deep down we can't turn off our feelings and sometimes the wanting of them gets stronger.

    Good write, Em

  • 8 years ago

    by Mayday

    *Sigh* It's a drag how feelings continue to linger
    Can even be annoying and definitely frustrating - but it's really your hearts way of being true to itself. You must have really loved this person, you know? Maybe you always will love this person but in time, it does get better, though...
    Stay strong!

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