Masochist

I could never
put our hearts together
no matter how hard I tried
I would push you away
and everytime you said
it was always you
I never understood
what you meant
why can't you love me
was all you could say
so hurt and pained
In so many ways
but still
you always came back
begging for what I could never give
no amount of tears
can wash that away
so I sit alone now
In an empty place
with empty rooms
only now understanding
how much I miss you
I sit and wait for you to come back
even though you know
I won't change
but still
you will walk thru that door
with a hug and smile
hoping I will