Women in disguises

Some women came into my life
Disguised as my friend
My girlfriend or family

Especially the ex's

They were the most poisonous
there's venom in their touch
hypnosis in their gaze

numb to the feeling
my mind in a different state

powerless to love
it made me dangerous
I had illusions
One will be my wife

Damn what a fool was i

She made up excuses
She became the hypocrite she hated
The fake lesbian she degraded
Now the heterosexual she envied

Which one is it?
Or is it the other way around?
She was heterosexual hiding behind a lesbian

Trying to be a chameleon
Those women are no longer disguises
They couldn't hide even if they wanted to

I opened up my eyes
Opened up my mind
I opened my heart

I seen them for who they really are
They were the problem I didn't want to erase
The lesson I learn to accept

They are my past
They are a bittersweet experience
They are a reminder

Of the example
Of the pain I didn't deserve
And the women I don't want

women in disguise