Tara my first born

I feel lost and lonely
Empty and broken
Saddened and confused
My heart feels the pain no mother should ever experience. I've lost one of the most powerful loves you could ever have.The love of my first born. I know you wish your mother were dead but I'm not however a piece of me left when you said goodbye. Where did I go so wrong? I just loved you and wanted you to be strong, get to know the world and learn right from wrong. but all I have is a memory of a child that thinks I did her wrong. I constantly think about you night and day at work and at play how your love just up and faded away. I'm grieving a child that never died but yet all I do is set and cry. My heart pours out in prayer that someday you'll know just how much I care. My love for you will remain as strong today as it did yesterday. My beautiful girl. I love you so much. Sixteen years wasn't long enough. I want you here to love, to hold, to enjoy, Oh God please! Please! Let her know I love her still. She won't hear from me but my love is real.