I find myself lost in daydreams
Full of laughter, love, warmth
Then it starts to sting
And I hate myself
For getting lost
For thinking of you fondly
For opening that part of me
The one that hasn't healed
That I'm not ready to remember
Angry that my mind betrays me
That my heart still hurts
Frustrated
That it eats away at everything I touch
Bleeding into those I try to love
