Cloud Gazing

The clouds are running a marathon
in my mind, in the sky.
breaking the invisible ribbon:
the ground between you and i.

i love you now,
and it doesn't matter.
i love you still,
but it doesn't matter.

i held onto those words,
too unsure for my own good.
listening to some sad songs,
too scared to sing along.
and you couldn't understand why;
you wouldn't understand why.

the clouds change shape,
and dump their contents;
my eyes change colour,
and dump their contents.

your sunny smile
cleared the condensation.
and with a worried breath,
you asked me why.

well, sometimes there is no reason,
only a swift collapse of clarity.
every word has a meaning -
sometimes i struggle to remember mine.

but you bought the calm
to the storm's eye.
you always made it easy
even at goodbye.