My Dilemma to my past and my present?

~He treats me good.

~But i don't treat him like i should.

~He can do way better then me.

~But he wants us to be.

~I want this confusion to go away.

~Because when hes around i don't know what to say.

~I don't want to hurt him or put him through pain.

~If only he knew i felt the same.

~It drives me crazy to think if i put us to an end.

~Would you still be my friend?

~sitting here thinking of my ex who treated me so bad.

~And because of him i was always sad.

~I miss him a lot.

~I wonder how it would be if i would have gave him one last shot.

~I miss everything i hate.

~But now its too late.

~I guess i can only get my s**t together.

~Because i cant keep this confusion up forever.

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