I listen to the lyrics
as they encourage me to try and avert disaster,
but the pain inside is unstoppable now,
and I need to slash this heavy weight of life
since I am have become a thousand stone heavier.
I have done it again
and there is no one else to blame,
but I remained under some sort of control
because I could have gone the whole way,
instead I stopped at wounds which would still heal over -
unlike my heart.
The weight of life crushing my loveless beauty,
and I am bleeding out inside,
barely breathing,
but still alive.
