I try to grasp the very first time
you told me nothing would ever stop your love
and that I would never have to explain myself to you,
your love was there for always,
forever.
You placed a ring upon my finger,
promising me unconditional love -
I wore this ring every single day for years.
Today,
I finally removed my ring,
it now means nothing to me.
Only reminding me of your abandonment,
not your love.
Removing it was the only way
I could force myself to believe
that you are never coming back.
I do not want to delete you from my life,
my memories, or my heart,
but it feels like you've already
erased me from your entire life.
When did I start fading away from your heart?
When did you stop loving me
the way I thought you always would?
I do not want to say goodbye,
I do not want to let you go,
but I don't think I can survive
being constantly reminded
of the pain the injected in my heart.
