Why me?

Ingrid, a very powerful piece full of sadness.

A smart girl who got a beautiful smile, who was always happy. There comes a wind that wipes my smile and left tears. Every night crying myself to sleep.
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There comes a time in all our lives that we can no longer take the pain or badness we are dealt.

Peace, happiness and love are impossible to me. My soul is tired of paining all day. My goals are now watching people following and achieving their goals and dreams, while mine are on hold. My dreams and goals are crashed before they could even start.
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Putting things on hold for other people is a sacrifice we all make if we love them but shouldn't do anyway.

I feel like I gambled with my own soul and lost everything. I sold my dreams to strangers. Why it happened to me? Why not that other girl? Lot of whys are in my mind.
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We all wonder why, what if? But what happens to us all depends on what we allow.

I also need some break from pain. When will the rain come for me? People even forgot my beautiful smile, because shame and sadness are now called my happiness.
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Yes, we all need to break the cycle of pain and hatred of oneself but can we truly live without pain?? I often wonder.

All the best and welcome to P&Qs and the collaborators.
Em