The Struggle

Full of love
Brimming with empathy
A belief in compassion
I possess these things

A fierce passion
Fire that burns from the core
A reflection of all I've known
All I've touched and tasted

Anger I try to wrangle
Pain I try to subdue
So I don't lose sight
Of all I hold dear

Days blend into nights
Memories blur by
And it's easier to remember
What cut you

So easy to slip into the misery
To remind yourself of what went wrong
So easy to forget those moments
The ones that made you shine

You live in the warnings
Guarding all you have left
Suffocating happiness
In fear that it's not real

And if it is
That it won't last
That another's heart
Is not as true as your own

Afraid to let go
To venture into the unknown
Afraid that you're not enough
Because someone made you feel as though you never were

And you wrestle with yourself
The world
Never realizing the fight is fruitless
And chance is all there is

Happiness
Like pain
A state of mind
A choice of being