You'll Never Really See

I may just be a 16 year old girl,
But it takes a lot to make my toes curl.
I've had a hard life,
And people wonder why I have a hard time believing in Christ.
I'm far from perfect,
I know that's no secret.
I try to be my best,
But I can never pass,
That simple little test.

People never really see,
What exactly goes on inside of me.
How my mind thinks,
And how my heart can link.

People never really see,
What exactly goes on inside of me.
They never really see the pain,
The pain that makes me somewhat insane.
I'm depressed and cry a lot,
There are more problems inside me,
Then what people originally thought.

People never really see,
What exactly goes on inside of me.
I am a cutter,
Through and through.
You think you're better than me,
And I also believe you do.
You never understand the feeling I get,
Whenever I start to slit.
I feel no pain,
I feel it drain.
A few minutes later it's done,
Only then does the pain start to come.

People never really see,
What exactly goes on inside of me,
Neither do I really,
But then again,
I don't really try.
I give up a lot,
But that's before my blood starts to clot.
I have many problems,
You'll just have to cope,
Don't bother to freaking judge me,
You're not the pope.

You'll never really see,
What goes on inside of me.
I don't expect you to,
You'll never even have the slightest clue.