Lloyd, this is hard hitting and somewhat inspiring and definitely relatable.

One day.

some where.
some how

I'll find the peace that I've have been so earnestly searching for.
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I like the pauses because it make the reader pause (obviously) and gives them time to reflect, well it did me anyway. Finding peace with oneself is one of the first steps I feel with finding peace at all.

till then ill just tighten my boots pull my cover low and and keep pushing.
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Yeah, pull those boots up and keep your head held high and remember it's just a bad day not a bad life. I think I t would be better if you put I'll instead of ill though.

hard. fast. alone.

until the days are numbered and i find myself

free.
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Again, I like the pauses and the message of being free after the life has ben squeezed out of us.

Great write, Em

I agree with Em!
This is a great write.
Short but full of determination and hope for better days ahead.
Well done!