January 27Th, I will tell you why I pushed you so much. You may not understand yet. You once told Umi that I hate you... I do not hate you... Many reasons factor to all my decisions. The one thing I never got enough of was love... And the one thing I never gave enough of was love. Yes, my decisions have lead me atrocity... Right now I hate to admit that "A" was right, a mirror never lies... She seen what they see... That is the very reason till this day I hate looking into them. They are an externalization of myself, I can see the monster I have became. That is the reason I am not angry you have not wrote me. January 27Th, I have pushed you your whole life, not once would I let you rest, or place your weight upon anyone else. You are amazing little brother, but If I accept you as you are, I would make you worse... But if I treat you as though you are capable of becoming, I help you become that.
