January

by Brenda   Nov 1, 2016


I always thought January
the cruelest of months...
The days are the shortest,
those winter nights,
bitterly cold...
At least that's how it was in
the northern Michigan town
I grew up in.
I should think differently
of January...
I bore my eldest daughter
mid-January.
I was blessed again years later
with her son,
born in the early hours
of a cold January morning...
-
I also lost my step-father
a week after my daughter
turned six that year...
Lung cancer choked out
his final breath...
Years later my daughter
took my own breath away-
walking out of my life,
shredding my heart,
choking my breath
as sure as my step-fathers cancer.
-
The birth of her son
brought her back to me-
Motherhood is indeed
a miracle...
I no longer think of January
with dread-
There's warmth in these
short winter days
in the shape of a small,
blue-eyed boy,
who healed my shredded heart,
who brought his mama
back to me...

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  • 8 years ago

    by Brenda

    Thank you so much. It had been very much an emotional rollercoaster. Thankfully this all has past and I look forward to the future. I appreciate your in-sight.

  • 8 years ago

    by deeplydesturbed

    Wow Brenda,
    Such a mix of happy and sad! =/
    I'm not sure what i'm supposed to be feeling through this!
    Its like an emotional roller coaster..
    January sounds like a very up and down month. Well done on portraying all your feelings!

  • 8 years ago

    by Mr. Darcy

    Brenda, this is so beautiful sad. The end though is the cherry on the top.

    Well done.

    ((Hugs)) x

    • 8 years ago

      by Brenda

      Awww, thanks Michael! Hugs back to you!

  • 8 years ago

    by Em

    Brenda, this has everything in it happiness, sadness and somewhat anger. I guess previously you would have liked to have skipped January but now things are different.

    1: Here you tell it how it is bitterly cold, short winter days that can leave us with the winter blues even after the best Christmas.
    2: Here we have reasons that January is much more than winter blues for you because you lost your step father and if that was imcomphrehendable years later your precious daughter walks out.
    3: Now here it is bittersweet the birth of your grandson doesn't only bring a new life but starts a new relationship with your daughter.

    This is really emotional Brenda.
    All the best, Em

    • 8 years ago

      by Brenda

      Em, thank you so much. Yeah, sometimes life is quite the emotional Rollercoaster. Something I know you know all to well. Things are good now, thankfully! It was some bleak cold days for a long time. Hugs sweet friend!

  • 8 years ago

    by Mayday

    I have goosebumps! I think this is so touching and personal and sweet. Thank god for your grandson - he sounds like such a blessing ^_^
    God bless, Brenda.

    • 8 years ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you so much! Yes, little man is indeed a blessing. He's such a ray of sunshine. God bless you too!

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