Gotta stay busy

My arms are tired from holding up my phone
But its all i can do
Because when I'm alone
I need the distraction
Gotta stay busy
'Cause the thoughts in my head, they aren't so pretty
They'll eat me alive
And the very people who will pity
My soul are the people who put me here to begin with
They wont care through it all
But they'll care when its finished
They'll question why
Even though they never tried to help
Even though i wasn't good enough
And they put me through hell
They'll have tears in their eyes
Even though that's how i always felt
They'd call me selfish
When they dealt my pain
And say they loved me
Even though they filled my life with hate
They told me i was crazy
Psycho, insane
But didn't bother to find the causes underlying
All the breakdowns and broken things
The way that id talk, the way that I thought
Never bothered at all to see something was wrong
And now they dare say
They're remembering
Well the shit the they remember? That was all fake
All just a mask to hide the mistakes
written all over my face
Like you took a sledgehammer to my heart
Over and over again
Blame me for the damage
And went on with you day
But you re still sitting here
With a frown on your face
Saying you couldn't see
What could have possibly gone wrong with me.