Was

by Allie   Nov 11, 2016


She was doing so good with coming to terms the mess her mind is.
She was feeling pretty proud of herself for being stronger than her weakness.

That doesn't mean it has been easy.
That doesn't mean she has been freed.
It means she's started to understand, she's stronger than what she thinks.

But one night the thoughts got to be just a little to much. The urge got a little to strong. She's taken a step back.

She's let her weakness get the best of her. She let her thoughts run wild. She didn't pick up a pen and write it all away. No, that was her biggest mistake.

Her mind had other plans for numbing the bad thoughts in her mind. She feels so ashamed and so disgusted.

The knife got the best of her this time.
The pen wasn't quite strong enough.
That doesn't mean she's gonna continue writing with a knife.

It just means she has to start over.
She's hoping it's for the last time.

She was doing so good with the help from a pen. She was doing so good trying to pretend.

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  • 7 years ago

    by Beautiful Tragedy

    Sometimes even the strongest of us break; however we tend to be the ones who stand back up quickly.

    • 7 years ago

      by Allie

      Very true! Thank for taking the time to read it!

  • 7 years ago

    by Gabriel

    I can relate to this a little bit. Whats interesting is that our mind can repeat things that we hate about ourselves over and over, feelings of emptiness, or failure until it drives us insane but when I beat myself up on paper and just be honest it somehow takes the burden right off of me and my mind suddenly accepts it and gets over it.

    This piece though sad has hope and remember we all dance to the tune we sing to ourselves, we are and do what we tell ourselves what we are and do. So sing a positive tune cause your going to need it, it will bring the strength out of you that lies dormant just remind yourself that it's their.

    God bless!

    • 7 years ago

      by Allie

      Thanks for the comment and the taking the time to read it!

  • 8 years ago

    by Brenda

    Allie, keep up the fight. I know you struggle and I appreciate you sharing this write. Hugs to you-

    • 8 years ago

      by Allie

      Thanks Brenda! I'm trying my hardest

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