Devil's Children

by Brookie   Nov 12, 2016


We are the Devil's children,
choking on the suppression of God.
His children spit on us
for being born from a different cloth.

We are denied human rights
for having beating hearts
and walking on two legs;
We are just like them.

Still they mock our love
by burning our houses
and hating our children;
none of us are safe.

We are the Devil's children,
standing proud for what we believe in
and spreading hope where war was;
we are Love.

A Poem For My LGBT Brothers And Sisters <3

YOU DO NOT NEED TO READ THIS WALL OF TEXT - it only gives context

Background story behind devil's children. When i was young (late elementary school) i asked what was so wrong with being gay, (I was in a very Christian environments) I was told they were the devil's children. The person who said such a thing to me wanted to either scare me or they wanted me to hate them for being gay. Thats why he made the connection to the devil.

I didnt feel that way and i always loved them. I thought i could cure them with love & i knew I was different inside so i thought I had all this sin in me i had to get rid of. I tried loving them and i tried neglecting myself. as i got older i understood why it was a 'sin' and i understood where i stood. I knew what transgender was in my first year of middle school (and i knew i was a female, or a 'girlboy' as i called it when i was really little, like 4-5 years old) and i wanted so hard to repress it.

I became *very religous*. I went to church 3 times a week, went out to everything, and i prayed every single day for god to fix me. I did this till 9th grade. Never once did i spread hate towards the LGBT community because i knew how bad it hurt inside myself.
One day the church put together that i was not 'normal' and i was shunned fro mthat church and ... I put all my faith into those friends, all my faith into those people, all my faith into that church. I lost everything. *to me it was everything*...

That day i cursed God, I cursed his name and i begged the devil to kill me, to take my life away, to... Disappear. Its taken me over 10 years to convince myself that i am worth what another person is worth. I still struggle with that, when i experience negativity i believe 'i deserved that'.. No no i didnt but its easy for me to go there. I spent my childhood and some of my adulthood believing that.

Now i struggle with my own religion & accepting me... What's a girl to do?

This poem is for them, For the kids who have been damned, who have been hurt, who struggle. I love you and you are not alone *hug*

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  • 8 years ago

    by Hellon

    I really admire you for standing up and being a voice for so many who have been treated this way...it really saddens me that, in this day and age, so many narrow minded people (including organised religions ) still exist. I hope that, by bringing it to the table, more people will realise that we are all equal...we all hurt inside, and perhaps have second thoughts before saying something derogatory next time. Well done Brookie!!!

  • 8 years ago

    by silvershoes

    Apparently I used all of my nominations. Gah. They go so fast. Please someone nominate this poem!

  • 8 years ago

    by Em

    Brookie, this is a really sad piece that hit me where it hurts, the heart and pulled those strings right out. The background information made me tear up. Why do we judged for the person we are.. No one is safe. Our weight, religion, sexuality, race and looks get judged all the time and we should all look through those kinds of things into what a person truly; a person's personality but not many of us do. To not be able to go back to that church because of your sexuality is completely and utterly wrong especially as now you are questioning the very faith you had built up on. I have to agree with Brenda we should al be equal regardless of any of our 'mishaps.'
    I think you for one are a very strong and beautiful lady, sod what anybody else says though I can understand (especially now with Trump in charge) that you are scared but why should you be? It's outrageous.

    A very hard hitting piece.
    All the best.

  • 8 years ago

    by Brenda

    Brookie, this is so sad. One should not feel like they are evil because of their sexual orientation or that they identify male or female. One should not be shunned from their own church either. I guess that's what has turned me away from organized religion. It says to love your neighbor but being gay is a sin and they should be shunned or worse yet killed. I am confused by that...I was taught we are all equal and jut because someone's beliefs are different or they live a different lifestyle than my own doesn't make them a lesser person than me. God doesn't make mistakes, he created each and every one of us. I believe you are born gay or straight or whatever. It's not something you choose just because. I wish ore people could be more understanding of their fellow person and be more tolerant of differences. maybe things would be a whole lot nicer. I'm so sorry you have had to feel like this all these years. Thank you for sharing. Hugs-

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