Mikaylar,

This really is a very sad read. At the risk of causing offence, I have to be honest and say that this doesn't seem to be what true love should be about. When it leaves you scared, insecure and unhappy more often than not, perhaps it's time for a rethink. However, having said all that, I know it's always easier to make the right decision when you're simply looking in like me.

*by the way, 'dieing' should be 'dying'

Do take care,

Ben