I loved you all this time
thought you'd always be mine
even through the fights and tears
we've managed to hold on all these years
You gave me plenty of reasons to just walk away
I admit I tried but away from you I couldn't stay
I put my feelings and everything aside
just to let you keep your pride
I managed to raise three kids practically alone
each time you got tired you left our home
you ran back to the things that always broke us up
I started to get tired, started to get fed up
But i don't understand why i keep this feeling inside
why my tears keep falling, how I wish I didn't cry
People ask me why do you love him so much
they don't understand it was my soul you touched
You came into my life when I was barely a teen
said I was the one you'd make your queen
said you had a vision of the future right before your eyes
said Id be the mother of your children, and you didn't lie
Its been 18 years now that we've gone back and forth
feels like a war were fighting and I can't fight anymore
I look at my phone and see your number there
I try my hardest to not even care
I want to text you or call you to tell you how I feel
but I know deep down inside that is no way to heal
You left me again, with a broken heart
you tugged and pulled and ripped it apart
you didn't care that I cried, you still always walked away
it was me that brought you back every time you strayed
like a lost dog, that didn't know his way home
I grabbed you by your hand so you wouldn't be alone
I brought you back into our house and tried to break you from you ways
thought I could change you each time, but each time you never stayed
this battle that I fought with you always coming and going
I didn't even think about my children and what I was showing
I got so caught up in my own feelings
didn't realize the cards I was dealing
showing my kids that it was okay
for a man to hurt you and leave astray
To walk away from the family that he made
to take advantage of a woman that always stayed
To let go so easily instead of making it right
to give up on his family without even a fight
