Comfortably numb

by Karla   Nov 16, 2016


There's nothing left of us to long for anymore.
things that not move.
walls, years, silenced words.
the worst is when you see her beside me,
you feel everything went wrong
and it's pretty diffficult for you even to give us a simple like.
( don't you think she's prettier than me when i was her age?)

you still ache in my heart every single day. it's traumatic
but i know i'd do everything again and that includes
leaving you when you needed me most.
sometimes i feel torpid. sometimes i feel and
it is all i can do for us.
it's the only way i've found to honor what
we once had. i guess you made me happy.
nobody made me happier than you did.
how strange to realize that after a suicide,
after the understanding that passion and pain are
a kind of science.

your hair was so beautiful.
i feel like saying sorry whenever i look back
but there's nothing to hope for
and you might not know but it was hard
to rediscover myself feeling everything again
as i watched the turtles from where we used to sit
to contemplate sunsets and our own disturbance.

my inner and outer worlds pierced my eyes.
and it's lovely not to see anything even you
simply because when i don't see, i don't feel
and i don't want to feel so guilty,
so terribly guilty
again.
again.
again.
(my love)

karla bardanza

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  • 8 years ago

    by LittleMermaid

    Excellent..as always 😊

  • 8 years ago

    by Em

    Karla like Andrea said you have a depth with you writing that makes us feel the emotion throughout it and yearns, aches etc.

    1: I liked this opening because it hits you square in the face. When relationships end people can turn sour and forget even the good times and there's always those. Check the word difficult there's an extra 'f'

    2: This really hit me hard as I seem to be going through this very thing right now and it hurts like hell doesn't it? When we love someone we will do anything for them even go through their pain with then and that includes being in the middle when they need someone to shout at, hug etc etc.

    3: An enjoyable stanza. Sometimes all we have is memories and though we want to go back, we can't.

    4: This really got me, the repetition is good.
    We should never feel guilty for things we did

    All the best, Em

  • 8 years ago

    by Maple Tree

    Karla,

    This is a write that is so deep and heartfelt that it brought tears to my eyes.....

    Your writing has this unique blend of depth, it makes my jaw drop! Just wonderful

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